A photo from the not so distant past

I got my first digital camera, in 2004. How convenient it was. No more waiting until you had film before taking pictures.  Instead of waiting for a special occasion, I could now snap photos all I wanted.

The photo below was taken on Aug 3, 2008.

I remember the date clearly, because my son's father, had just passed away the day before this photo was taken. That is my son in the photo (who was then 12 yrs old). My daughter who was 5 at that time, is, who's hands and arms you can see in the photo.

When I look at this photo, I can only imagine what my son was thinking. I am sure it was thoughts of his father.

Sometimes we just take photos, not realizing, what we may capture, and the feelings behind them. 

I believe all photos have a story behind them.

Just a note;

{Memorial post I made is here, Memorial Online is here}

Bloggers Block, Birthday Celebration & other stuff...

For the last month, I have sat here, opened up to make a post, and.......nothing.

So much has been going on in the last month, I would never have time to put it all into words.

I can be in the shower, doing housework, or out for a walk, and the thoughts just come to me, and I think, what a great blog post this would make. Then I sit here and my brain goes blank. Bursts of inspiring blog posts, in one minute, out the next.

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Our summer has been pretty hot, just as I imagine it has been most places. We have a few beaches here, but we've only gone a few times. It's just so hot. By the time you trudge across the boardwalk and through the park your dying. But with cooler weather this week (In the mid 20's not 30's), I think we'll be good for a beach trip in a few days.

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I am now single. After 10 months I decided to call it quits with my bf, for now. I am not one to talk in much detail about my personal stuff, but maybe putting it down will make it more real to me.

I just do not think I am meant to be in a relationship. I've made bad relationship choices in the past, and the 2 long term ones I've had, took me longer to get out of then it should have. I don't want that to happen again.

The kids suffer too as relationships break down. I just don't want to put my young daughter through that.

I have enough to concentrate on, so I think I will deal with this just fine.

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My Granddaughters' birthday was yesterday, and today, her, her daddy and mommy, came over.

We had birthday cupcakes, ice cream and presents for her.

She is such a tiny little girl, and looks a lot like her mother did at the same age.

S was happy to see her neice, it's been awhile.

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The last few days have been kind of tough, then to have a day like today, makes you feel like you're on an emotional roller coaster. 

You know the joy won't last, but you enjoy it for the time you have it.

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But just a few minutes ago as I am writing this post, my 9 year old came up behind me, and said, "You're the best mom ever".

So maybe I was wrong. Other joyful moments will come. Sometimes when you least expect them to.

A Friday full of fun

Remember when you were in school, and for whatever reason, there was a day off school?(not the snow day, days though). A day off school, just wasn't a regular kind of day.

Today was a PA day, for S. I wanted to have a day that was just the 2 of us, spending time together, having fun. We decided last night, that today we would head to the beach.

We packed up our blanket, towel, books, and sunscreen, and headed out.

We found a quiet spot, and layed out our stuff.

 The water is still a bit cold, but S braved it, and went in quickly.

I think she much preferred to just lie in the sun. (the shoes are to hold the towel down, it was breezy)

Ice-cream and the beach just go together.

 

 

Have a wonderful weekend.